Nobody Knows

You only know what I want you to know. As far as you know, you really know nothing about me. As far as you know, I’m a completely different person. Even if you are my friend, my relative, or even if you’re my parents, you only know as far as what I want you to know. That’s the problem, we’re never completely sure about a person, no matter how close we feel to them.

A girl with long blonde hair, young and beautiful, a junior in high school, a cheer leader, a straight “A” student. She has all the friends she could ask for, even a handful of best friends. Her parents are nurturing, understanding and productive. She told them all her problems, her secret crushes, even her life questions. She had a comfortable life. They weren’t rich but could afford their simple wants and be satisfied. She plays the guitar and tries to compose songs. This recharged her soul and nurtured her creativity. She has her fair share of problems, but nothing she couldn’t handle thanks to her friends and family. She is in love, a senior, he asked her if she would like to go the prom with him…She said yes…

She died…She killed herself…Just a few days after her 16th birthday, a few weeks before prom…Overdose, reports say…Nothing could have warned anybody of her suicidal tendencies. Later, they found out, she was visiting a website which taught her how to commit suicide. This website told her that this life was a prison, an option, and dying would free her of these “earthly bonds”. It even taught her how to write a suicide note. But what’s more disturbing is the fact that people were supporting her decision to commit suicide, teaching her what to do and saying that they’ll do it too. On her suicide note, she blamed no one, she said she wanted to be free…

You’ll never really get to know a person. You’ll only know what that person wants you to know. We all blog and talk about what’s happening in our lives. We write about our thoughts, ideas and experiences. Our readers and even ourselves feel like on a blog, you can open up and “Be Yourself”. Yes, a lot of us are truthful and reveal every detail of our being, to be scrutinized or enjoyed by the whole world. This is a way of expressing ourselves, but can this be a way of reaching out to others? Hoping they’ll read intently, take us seriously for once and understand the emotions we embed in our posts.

Most of us, read a post, give our take on it and move on to the next blog. Sometimes, that’s enough. There’s nothing wrong with enjoying what a blogger wrote and moving on to the next story. But what if a blogger really needed someone’s help? It doesn’t have to be a physical thing. Words that sustain one’s mental composure could mean the world to another. Do you give out the common, “Don’t worry, it’s going to be okay. Just hang in there and everything will turn out for the better” as a comment, or simply move on to the next blog? Maybe you try to relate your experiences to what they’re experiencing. Maybe you even go as far as emailing them and ask them how they’re doing via IM. Whatever you do, you never really know how the blogger really felt about what you said. They may also give out the common response, “thank you for your support”. In the end, they’re still the only one facing the next move…

You only know what I want you to know…

What do you really know about me?

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