Just Another Battle

Every symptom pointed to one thing…Cancer…

Someone once told me, whatever doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger. Do you agree? What if it blind-sights you? If that whatever is unexpected, uncalled-for or even undesired, would it still make you stronger?

It is a battle that we face. A struggle that an individual encounters every minute of every hour of everyday of ones life. We cling to every bit of bond we have with others. We share in their joys, their pangs, in their loves and in their heartaches. It makes everything bearable. It makes life worth it. However, even with all the support and love we receive, we must face it all alone. No one can really comfort you in the end but yourself.

I know this because I have felt this. I know how it is to fear for ones life. It is such an ominous feeling that consumes my every second. At first, you deny its reality. Thinking maybe if you don’t believe, it won’t be true. But my mind and my body cannot hide the veracity. My dreams recite the prayers I need the most. My subconscious fights for me, this war of nerves in my head. Fear, sadness, and pain are all I feel. Paranoia invited all the negatives in my thoughts. It rots my mind, spreading to my body and enfeebles my soul. The glorious sadness...it brings me to my knees…

Wait, am I over thinking this? Or is it just me preparing myself for what is to come? I hate this…This fear in me, it spreads like a disease consuming what I once was.

Hope is all that we really have in this world. And that is all that I really have. The hope that I get through this and emerge a better person because of it.

So tell me, is it true that whatever doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger? Because I just don’t know…

Everything…pointed to one thing…

Recession, in terms

Depression, a state of melancholia, unhappiness or sadness, or to a relatively minor downturn in mood that may last only a few hours or days.

This is generally seen as quite distinct from the diagnosis of clinical depression. However, if depressed mood lasts at least two weeks, and is accompanied by other symptoms that interfere with daily living, it may be seen as a symptom of clinical depression, dysthymia or some other diagnosable mental illness, or alternatively as sub-syndromal depression.

Depression is suffering, sometimes seen as mental echoes of physical pain. Other somatic expressions can be a sense of "dispirited", or "lagging" or being weighed down, and a heaviness in breathing, expressed as broken or despondent sighs. It may also be associated with apathy, boredom, hollowness and lack of any positive source of interest or joy.

External affective signs of depressed mood also include a physical hunching or stooping, or putting the head in the hands, and an appearance of being physically subdued, and flatness of speech.

See Also Grief, Melancholia, Angst, or even EMO…